I left hospital on Wednesday, and so far all is well. Forgive my short posts of late, my brain is fuzzy and finding words to put in a sentence is really hard. I’ve been passing time knitting and crocheting also playing Portal 2; Logic isn’t one of my strengths so I tend to take a while to get through each test chamber or area, and I’ve resorted to cheating four times, but it’s still fun.
Women’s weekend was good, I attended less than half the meetings / activities, but I’m glad I went; It tired me out so no church last night and no small group tonight. I hope I’m up to going to uni tomorrow, I’ve already missed two weeks and have not done any reading. I know I’ve been playing Portal and knitting, but it’s a different type of attention, I’m not in a learning frame of mind.
I saw a neurologist last Tuesday (that’s why my discharge was delayed) and there was enough concern to send me for an MRI, but not enough to go running through the city screaming. The MRI was on Friday morning but I couldn’t get another appointment for the results until August 19, she’ll call if it’s anything urgent, but since there’s not a great deal of urgency in dealing with MS (the big suspicion) I don’t know if that means she’d call for that and I can feel relief in a few days if the phone doesn’t ring or if I have to wait a month. I don’t want MS, I’ve got enough illnesses! I wasn’t going to write about that at all or until I know the outcome because of the predictable comments “All you do is whinge and look for things to worry about, there are people out there with real problems like MS which you’re just convincing yourself you have to get attention” etc. I had trouble with last week’s blog comments, I suspected my friends of leaving them, I thought everyone hated me. I just wanted to share my tiny bit of joy. As a result I’ve changed the comment requirements, no more hiding behind anonymous, I know it’s quicker to post that way, but it’s not an option anymore.
I was pretty surprised by the ferocity of last post's comments...I hadn't had time to read them until this morning because work has been very busy.
ReplyDeleteBut surely the people who commented so brutally don't actually know K. Their comments may be genuine and heartfelt, but can never be as full of wisdom as they might hope them to be because they have only skimmed the surface by reading her blog. The blog is where she is honest about whatever she's thinking at that moment - she may disagree with those sentiments a week later or even a few minutes later. But it is a snapshot only. Not many people bravely chronicle their strangest feelings and thoughts in the straightforward and public way that she's doing. And anyone who puts themselves out there in such a vulnerable manner deserves dignity and respect for their honesty. A spewing of vitrolic hatred, not so much.
My two cents, I guess. Try to resist being judge and jury with regard to other people and you'll be halfway there...
K
I was also shocked by last weeks comments, but I disagree with your course of action.
ReplyDeleteTo insinuate that your friends wrote those kinds of things means that you don't trust your friends and the only outcome of that will be that your friends won't feel trusted and that may affect your friendship in a negative way. If you believe that certain friends wrote that, I think you should confront them, rather than harbouring ill feelings. I for one am sitting here wondering whether you think I wrote something, and feeling pretty afronted by that.
I think what you've done here is to try and take control over a situation you can't actually control. You now feel like you are in control of what people are saying about you by knowing who says what. But K you will never know what people say about you. I will never know what people say about me. It's a fact of life. We can't control other peoples thoughts or words. We can only control our own reaction. Even in blog world.
Sending you so much love, K. <3
ReplyDeleteWe'll talk over coffee Bec, I don't want to explain it all on here.
ReplyDeleteHugs. Let us know of the outcome?
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